5:30 am
it's 5:30 am decided to make a short entry after finishing my work. alhamdulillah! so, before i start my day tomorrow, i'd like to share about what i felt after 3 days. lonely. restless. anxiety. have you ever felt this? isn't hurting you? it hurts me. a lot. i mean, how can i continue my work with all these feelings? how can i be positive in every single day if i still have these feelings? how can i make people around me to be happy if i'm still hurting? and how can i have a good conversation with people if i can't give the best for myself? i cant. i hate this feeling. i hate to hurt myself with loneliness and restless. i feel like, ive been troubling many people and i felt like im too desperate to get attention from them. i hate myself for this. it was suddenly a miracle. I thank Allah for making me to realize that i still have Him. as i felt so sad, i realized that He wanted to meet me